We perform so hard at becoming “greater people”, at getting better intelligence and more skills. We want to be loved more and become more popular. The entire self-help industry is focused on improving the self to help you develop into a better you. That’s still another key we secretly play on ourselves, thinking we’ve to keep spinning our wheels wanting to become better. This self-improvement game is still another secret we are able to to learn to let go of. It’s really relaxing once you begin to understand that you may not need to become much better than you presently are. You had been created perfect. It is perhaps not through self-improvement that you find peace but through self-acceptance.
As I caused A Class in Wonders, I could observe that there clearly was a fear of heavenly love in my own mind. I understood this is the ego’s anxiety about losing itself. The vanity is afraid of being exposed and being regarded as a smoke of nothingness. That’s worries of intimacy. We discuss that concern in a course in miracles, which may also be projected as anxiety about sexual closeness, but it’s actually a fear of dropping our persona, our disguise of individuality. It is the fear of getting taken away by a wonderful enjoy, a love therefore effective that nothing people may even envision anything as fantastic and powerful!
For me personally, these would be the huge techniques, since it does not begin with this great awareness. It always begins with emotion like you’ve done something very wrong, whether you’ve masturbated, taken anything, mistreated someone, or there is anything in your thoughts that you’ve evaluated as therefore hideous that you never actually need to face it, you only want to overlook about any of it and drive it out of awareness.
Underneath all those memories and thoughts, is the belief that individuals are separated. This is the “secret” we hide. It is actually an impossible opinion, but we think it is true; We have judged it as terrible and have sent it out of awareness. All unconscious shame originates from that opinion in separation. And as you truly give your self to the wonder, you feel all those concealed values and strategies are now being washed away and you finally face that concealed belief in divorce!